SpectrumBunny

Happy Easter! He is Risen :] ✝️⛪🙏

haha i'm anemic oops 🙃

I'm 25 now what even is that

so

my biological dad

died

of a blood clot

and i’m feeling this weird mix of emotions bc i never knew him, i didn’t grow up with him, i’ve heard terrible stories about the things he did to my mom and my siblings and even to me when i was just a defenseless baby

i’m a tiny bit ashamed that my first reaction to my mom telling me he died was “COOL” but damn it. how can i not be a little bit happy that he’s gone from this world? he was a manipulative abuser. he used everybody who crossed his path and then once they were no longer useful he tossed them out. he didn’t truly care about or love anyone. he was very angry. he had problems that he refused to fix.

i know that not everyone on his side of the family will think he’s terrible. and that’s their thing, but i can’t deal with hearing stories that paint him in a positive light.  i know he wasn’t a good person.

i’m just glad he can’t try to get in contact with me ever again.

bye neil.

i have had it up to HERE with medical professionals (and like, people in general, but medical professionals especially) being rude to me about my low level of pain tolerance. i am AUTISTIC. my senses are wired differently, including touch, and it makes me HYPERSENSITIVE to pain. maybe to YOU it doesn't hurt at all, but to me it's incredibly painful AND i bruise easily. but you can't just use the word "sensitive" in a sentence anymore or people start mocking you to your face as if that's an okay thing to do. i'm just about ready to start telling people that i have nerve damage because maybe then they'll actually apologize when something hurts me.